I’m learning to love the uncertainty that’s wrapped within total security and certainty.
Sounds crazy, right? But that’s what faith is all about. And faith is what enables us to walk with Christ. I said that in an e-mail to a friend the other day and after I reread what I had written, I realized that it is a perfect description of my relationship with Christ. The only light I have is the light I’m given. The only revelation I have is what’s been revealed. We see only because we are given sight. Everything is unknown and everything is uncertain except for the fact that all of that is unimportant and meaningless because I’m carried by sovereign grace.
Funny how God uses random things to speak to us very clearly, right when we least expect it. I read an article today that totally hit home:
Think about this dialog for a minute and let the meaning sink in –
“‘I’d say you’re wrestling with God.’
‘Brother, God’s ways are beyond us,’ said Pablo. ‘So when He lets hurt into our lives, we have to revise our opinion of the nice Man Upstairs who just wants us to be happy.’
‘That’s not what I think about God —’
‘Well, you’re pretty ticked about this one —’
‘Because I thought God was good,” spat Andrew. “And there’s not much ‘good’ in losing the girl I thought I was gonna marry.’
‘So the Lord’s only good when you get what you want?’
‘No, but a good God wouldn’t — lie to me, OK? I really believe He said —’
‘Brother, before you call Him a liar —’
‘Fine, then I have no ability to understand His will for me. And that’s almost as bad.’
Pablo sighed heavily. ‘Brother, we can talk about God’s will,” he said. “But that’s not the real issue here. Are you willing to wrestle with God — to stay with Him until you know Him more; to figure out what He’s doing? Or are you going to run because He doesn’t fit your ideas?'”
To me, that says that if I keep searching, chasing, and running after truth, truth will be revealed. And we need it to be revealed because something C.S. Lewis said is very true – “Christianity, if false, is of no importance, and if true, of infinite importance. The only thing it cannot be is moderately important. ” Similarly, Scriptural doctrine is of infinite importance… it’s worth wrestling with God to know Him in a more intimate way.
Isaiah 42:16 is a remarkable promise: “I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
We can never be forsaken!